My phobia rears it's ugly head....

Well, as most of you who read this know, I suffer from emetophobia {fear of vomiting} (and I DO mean SUFFER). Well, my eldest has woken us about 45 minutes ago with vomiting and he had another bout about 5 minutes ago. His stepfather, Doug, bless his heart is taking care of everything and I have simply grabbed my laptop and ran outside. Had to take an extra dose of tranquilizer and I'm freaking. All you "normal" people out there are going "what the hell is her problem??!! Her kid threw up. So what." Well, it is a BIG deal to me, that is why it is a PHOBIA. In irrational fear. And I KNOW that it is "not a big deal"....my mind really does know that.....but when something triggers me, my phobia kicks in and that's all she wrote :-( I REALLY hope no one else catches whatever he has.....poor kid.